I met her – that was the best thing which has ever happened to me. I’ve heard it so many times that people fall in love. But this never happened to me. I never fell. I felt like as if I am rising, rinsing very high. It felt great.
I was in my college when I met my life for the first time. That was like a magnetic moment and I tried to repel it as much as possible. Not sure when, but very soon we were good friends, rather say best friends. She became my strength then fear and then suddenly she took over everything and became my life. That was the time when I started rising – very high!!!
Sooner I was in the struggle for a job. Either I was dumb enough to not get a job or the employer didn’t want anything that better. My life said – I believe in you, you are the best! Not sure if the employer somehow got to know about it, I got a job – good enough to keep me and my life happy about it.
Life flourished – love nourished. We came closer to each other. That was the time we were walking across the beach holding each other’s arm, sharing the same coffee, doing anything to see each other, celebrating valentine, singing romantic songs, falling in love – rising in love!!! I can never forget that cute smile; I could do anything for that smile! I can never forget that shy giggle when I hugged her! I can never forget the spirit, the spirit of love which she brought in me!
Time was very crucial at that stage. I was just managing it somehow, as usual. The only thing which kept my spirit high was my life. You never walk across a dry and clean street every time. Even I did not. This time it was wet enough to drench me completely. I could see my life going away from me and could do nothing. I wear power glasses so I never use to wear sunglasses. That day, too, I could not realize that it was going wrong! Or may be I realized and thought that my life will handle it this time, yet again!
I was planning for a big flight. I was planning for a big surprise for my life. I was planning to get everything settled. The ground was all set, I was about to take off when I realized that my life was no more with me. May be, I was just too late. It all happened in front of me and I could not do anything else that smiling to my fate! I had no idea what would bring that cute smile back. She wanted to go and I let her do that. I thought that is what my life wants, let it happen! My life chose to move on!
I have a bad habit of revisiting the day before I sleep! I did that and I never had my eyes so much loaded! It was just unbearable! But I had to let it happen. I never lived without my life until then from the time I met her. This was the first time I had a lot of time, this time I was not running out of time! I had plenty of time to cry and celebrate!
My life was no more with me! But I was breathing. Every moment proved to be the most difficult moment of my life. I saw a dry street and started moving on that. I realized after a few steps that I was falling! I was falling in love with my life every moment! I sooner realized that my life was my passion and that was the best feeling I had! Feeling can never die, neither mine did! It started increasing in me. I started rising again. Not sure if the time was right, as usual! But the fact that I loved my life was something which really made me feel high on spirit! She was not there but still she was inspiring me!
I wanted to see her happy! Everyone wants that, everyone wants to keep their life happy! And that is what we want from our life! We want to keep ourselves happy. For me, it’s all about my life! It’s all about – “what I want from my life!”
It has been many years now! I still walk on the same street just to see her once. I can never forget that cute smile! I still stir the coffee with sugar before I add milk; I still sing those songs and think that she would be listening somewhere; I still believe that someday “My life would say – I believe in you, you are the best!” I still close my eyes - stretch my arms and that brings smile on my face! I love my life!!!
~Shashank~
