Bits and Pieces

Beautiful as ever...

2012-02-07T10:16:00.000-08:00

~Photographed by: Shashank~

I stood by the stream,
watching you flow,
in the fear, with the pain,
and you go,
shattered and bare,
shamelessly, unharmed,
innocent,
beautiful as ever...

~Shashank~

Bland and Hue!!!

2011-06-13T02:02:00.000-07:00

In a waxed mind

a little occupied

in the morning bliss

with a sour kiss

the bland brush

on the blank as ever

the canvas on the bed

and a pinch of red

I paint you blue

I bring you hue

yet you're bland

that I never planned

Crimson and green

deep within

thurst to vie

the tears cry

the bottle of wine

will settle so fine

the bland will glow

vermilion and yellow

I'll paint it so deep

saturate and reap

so it never resign

just glow and shine

bland no more

my colorful canvas

Crimson red, Prussian blue

vivid green, yellow

and a bottle of wine...

~Shashank~

The Horologe!!!

2010-08-31T10:57:00.000-07:00

~Photographed by: Shashank~

That day,

from the open doors,

you walked away,

in my little while,

in a hope,

to see you,

again, to walk,

on the other side,

while you,

walk your life,

I waited!

that day,

with the dry eyes,

and grief,

in a hope,

that roads will turn,

and someday,

you'll return,

to let me walk,

on the other side,

while you,

walk your life,

I waited!!

that day,

may be,

I wasn't loud,

may be,

I didn’t

even say,

and,

you walked away,

may be,

I didn’t cry,

but in my little while,

like the sand,

falling,

in the horologe,

I waited!!!

~Shashank~

A little bit about us!

2010-05-06T22:23:00.000-07:00

~Photographed by: Shashank~

The chirping,

and the breeze,

early, in the morning,

the carefree thing,

unwinding, unlacing,

the toe fight,

and her smile!

like a picture,

a hue of desperation,

the inertia,

elicited within,

eyes awestruck,

in wonder,

at her,

gaping, my eyes!

the blissfulness,

of life,

the redolence,

like the lily,

and the roses,

blended within!

in the silence,

I whisper,

a little bit about us,

a little bit about me,

and a little bit about her!!!

~Shashank~

Last night!

2010-04-30T04:49:00.000-07:00

~Photographed by - Shashank~

last night,

it rained,

for a while,

in sleep,

agonized, sightless,

eyes dried!!

last night,

I had a dream,

on the crossroad,

standing still,

thoughtless, aimless,

I screamed!

last night,

I walked,

alone, together

with the wind,

thoughtful, sleepless,

and quite!

last night,

I read,

life, for a while,

unfolding with me,

unlike,

any other night!

last night,

I didn’t rush,

I stayed,

embraced!

last night,

I cried!!!

~Shashank~

Life n Death!

2010-01-13T08:02:00.000-08:00

~Photographed by: Shashank~

Wet as life,

dry as death,

be it evil,

or be it Seth!

cry in the sand,

and sing in the snow,

here I come and here I go!!!

~Shashank~

Midnight love!!!

2009-12-30T22:25:00.000-08:00

Lipto the lip

lockingin sin

asudden desire

moistwith whim

exchangingtouch

encounteringsoul

elicitlove

sensuousfall

beautifullife

inthe misty wind

momentshowling

aromaticcling

thefaith

therisque

smile

andwhisk

righteousmove

hideand seek

themidnight moon

thecup and the sip...

~Shashank~

Happy Birthday...

2009-11-11T10:53:00.000-08:00

photographed by : Shashank

Temple in the morning

peaceful as dove

the prayers

and the showers of love

neverending phonecalls

the photo frame

and the paint brushes

black forest cake

sent by a friend

the sand of goa

the shells

and some good wishes

candles blown out

and the birthday song

another year has passed

some right some wrong

many to come

and many to see

before i fall asleep

lem'me sing again

happy birthday to me...

~Shashank~

Beautiful moments...

2009-11-01T06:32:00.000-08:00

Photographed by: Shashank

The coffee evenings

vivid brown

the top of a hill

and the dusky town!

a nook at the temple

numb lips

chatting souls

and the beautiful echo

of the silence!

the rusted Gerbera

in the pages

of my life

a close friend

closer

than my diary!

the scooter stand

a pillion on my bike

the bloody orange

the silent tear

and an idiot mind!

trivial moments

the closeness

the unconditional knot!

the coffee shop

and the other side

of the table!

sometimes

all the times

I miss you...

~Shashank~

Afterlife!

2009-10-21T09:38:00.000-07:00

Photographed by: Shashank

How happy I am,

in the blue lagoon,
sleeping in the space,
walking on the moon,
nothing to cry for,
nothing to fear,
nothing to worry about,
no dirt, no smear,
it’s been this way,
since the day I died,
I haven’t laughed,
I haven’t cried,
I wish I could,
stay some more time,
with my kin and folks,
in the life-time,
to laugh to cry,
in the spirit lane,
to smell the wind,
to feel the rain,
I miss that life,
love so rife,
now here I am,
in my Afterlife!!!
~Shashank~

The first love of my life!

2009-10-11T21:31:00.001-07:00

Like I always do,

I was leaving again,

Like never before,

She was crying in pain!

Had no choice

but to depart,

and leave away

the weeping heart!

The tears in the heart,

ail in the core,

bratty from the face,

inside gored!

Forging the face,

choking in the heart,

feeling dissipated,

I could say no word!

Holding my breath,

looking in her eyes,

I gave her a hug,

and more she cried!

With least desire,

I had to leave,

lots of pain

and lots of grief!

Alas, I could stay,

to make her smile,

but you aren’t that lucky

always in your life!

The words I missed,

I never said to you,

I bear in my core,

the color of you!

The birth and the bliss,

I opened my eyes,

I fell in love,

with a beautiful surprise!

No timidity,

no strife,

you’re the first love,

of my life!

Every breath, every moment,

today and forever,

I’ll love you evermore,

oh my dear Mother!!!

~Shashank~

My Sweet November...

2009-09-07T21:36:00.000-07:00

The sinful days,

you and I!

The chaffer evenings,

the winter's sigh!!

The filter coffee,

the long drives in the nights!

The mist on the road,

the fog in the eyes!!

Sitting by the fire,

the melting hearts!

The numb lips,

the eyes full of words!!

The blanket,

and the fighting toes!

Your purple guitar,

and the musical flaws!!

My dear November,

and you resting

on my shoulder!

Yet the time goes,

I remember!

The little dreams,

and my sweet November!!

From the laughs,

to the blues!

Your hair clip,

and our pair of shoes!!!

~Shashank~

Life with you...

2009-08-21T13:11:00.000-07:00

Her giggles and blushes,

the flirts and the mushes!

Her sweet smile,

millions of life in a little while!

The eternal purity,

the love and the surety!

I just accepted,

and she cried!

Tough as a life,

I almost died!!

Didn’t know what happened,

the drops rolled off!

The two souls cried,

in acceptance for a while!

The lovely silence,

and the lovely agile!

I wish I knew,

What made her cry!

Why that drops,

came off her eyes!

I wanna say this to you!

Never cry, Oh dear!

I will always be here!

To hold your hand,

to make you smile!

To greet you love,

to live all the while!

The bliss of your touch,

felicity on a par!

The life will be ravishing,

as beautiful you're…

~Shashank~

Lost in translation...

2009-08-14T01:40:00.000-07:00

The bizarre herd,

the morning horn,

the ramble walk,

the squalling dawn,

the chasing mouse,

the tapping sound,

the jungle of keys,

the scrabble around,

the ringing phone,

the chat room,

the waiting mail,

the ironical noon,

the reckoning mind,

the toiling soul,

the riling wind,

the tedious crawl,

the deaf ears,

the euphony,

the shrinking eyes,

the scream & agony,

the lost destiny,

walked unknown,

the undesired,

the dark has grown,

missed to miss,

no time for love,

the restless heart,

beyond and above,

at the crossroad,

on the run,

life again,

lost in translation...

~Shashank~

On the bridge with a beer...

2009-08-05T13:32:00.000-07:00

The tear in the eyes,

walking in the rain,

the naked truth,

the barren pain!

The wounded road,

the dark sky,

the missing life,

the mystic cry!

No arms to hold,

no eyes to wait,

call it love,

or call it fate!

The cease of the time,

the silence of the breeze,

the lost destiny,

the killing freeze!

Faded apart,

with dirt and smear,

walking in the rain,

on the bridge with a beer…

~Shashank~

The Beggar on the road!

2009-07-28T09:32:00.000-07:00

Life is me and Life is you,

sometimes fake and sometimes true!

The one on the side of the road,

the beggar he looks, but he is a god!

He fights the odds, you see him mime,

better than us, he knows to rhyme!

To beg or die, he has a choice,

he chose to live and keeps the poise!

but when it ends and when he die,

I say he won, the battle of life!!!

~Shashank~

Moment of Truth!!!

2009-07-06T11:55:00.000-07:00

The other day when I was walking across the bridge, I had a strange feeling. I left her into tears once again and walked out. What else I could have done! After all, I do this all for her, for us, for our life! I love her more than anything else in my life, isn’t that enough! What does she do this all the time! Why can’t she understand that I was busy in my work, she is not a kid anymore! I was going through all these miserable thoughts, the frequent ones now-a-days when this little girl bumped in front of me – “Oh! I am Sorry! Wow, you have such a beautiful tie!” With a surprise and a smile on my face, I responded “That’s ok my child! And thank you very much!” “You are welcome – say my Hello to your beautiful wife – bye” and she left. Sigh! Wow, what was that! The 5 year old little girl touched the right nods of my mood. She made me smile and left. But, how did she know that I am married and my wife is beautiful? She must have seen us somewhere! Or was that just her gratitude! Whatever, but it was a lovely experience! May be a much needed one! That was bliss – you can call it an eye opener for me as well! She just made me feel good when I was feeling miserable about myself! Something that I forgot to do in my life a lot many times!

I forgot to find happiness in what I had. I forgot to acknowledge a good work, because it was just a normal work for me! I forgot to make her smile when she was upset. I forgot to make her realize how beautiful she looks when she smiles! I forgot to say “I love you, sweetheart” when she wanted to hear it the most! I forgot to be her confidence, her happiness, her life – I forgot to be myself. I forgot to say “You have such a beautiful tie”! I forgot to do the obvious things! I forgot to realize that the life is not just about completing all the future plans right on time and go ahead with the next one, but it is about finding happiness in what we have!

A small note of gratitude makes you feel so good at times when you are low! The only thing we need at that moment is a little love and some care from our dear ones! How often we do that? I believe most of us do not have time for it! We are so busy in running ahead in life that we forget to spread smile and live a monotonous life!

We all do this mistake; we forget to do things when they really matter a lot to our loved ones! May be, because we think them to be too small to mention or just too obvious. Small things, that matter so much. Life is a great mystery which all of us fail to understand. We decide to be perfect in our lives, start running for it and soon we end up as a participant of a big, never ending rat race, where we all want to live a perfect life, where every small rat tries to run behind a big rat to grow like it. The ones who get tired out of it either get eaten up by the other ones or die on their own. On the other hand, the ones who are ahead, they start trying to make the world around them change and be like them; but the point is, do we really want to be rat? At least not me!

When I entered this rat race, I became so busy in my goal oriented, patterned, well planned life that I forgot to realize that I have another life as well. The one where the roses matters more than money, the one where small words can bring smile on faces I love. The one, where people and relations matter more than things. The one where I get drenched in rain and do silly things. The one where I lose a game to her and still feel happy. The one where I sing, I dance, I romance! The one where, like the way Seth said in City of Angels, I could say "I would rather have one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it!" Where I could live in love! Where I could be myself!

I don’t want to be a rat anymore! That’s not my race. I don’t want to be perfect either! I am imperfect and I guess that is what keeps me human. I want to be happy now. I want to fall in love every moment of my life! I guess, I still have time! I know what I need to do to start with! Let me call her up and let her know how much I love her!

Sins of Life!!!

2009-06-06T22:53:00.000-07:00

The Sins I do all the day,

I talk to myself over night,

The dreams I see with open eyes,

The sleep is away out of sight!

The run of life, I keep on fallin,

I break my knees, I keep on crawlin!

it's a game that I'm supposed to win,

I do it right or I do a Sin!

No matter what I do to it,

I wont sleep, I wont weep!

The Sins I do all the day,

I call it life, and that is it!!!

~Shashank~

It's me!!!

2009-04-05T11:50:00.001-07:00

The rules are owned,

self defined,

Stubborn as a bull,

made up the mind,

strong, determined,

to climb the heap,

the dream on the top,

a lot to reap,

I love I hate,

Cheat and lie,

numb to the world,

but fear sometimes,

dry as a desert,

dead as a sea,

sharp at the edge,

unbridled to be free,

silent to kill,

speak to fly,

I want it, I get it,

I have always been this,

I'll stay the same,

You love or hate,

I'll be a name...

Epilogue!

2009-04-04T13:01:00.000-07:00

I may not always be with you,

but let me honest and let me be true,

As long as the stars are there in the sky,

I wont let this love die,

now, you may have walked away,

but where I am, I'll always stay,

the thousand of life we have spent together,

will remain alive in my world forever....

God is Near!!!

2009-03-07T09:50:00.000-08:00

At the dusk of the day,

With a smile on my face,

glazing like a moon,

Resting is the haze!

Wake up, Wake up,

Shall bear no fear,

Wake up, Wake up,

The God is near!!!

~Shashank~

I'm your Genie!!!

2009-02-19T13:20:00.000-08:00

I granted your wishes,

it's time to rest,

I gave all I could,

you have the best,

Sitting in desire,

waiting for next,

the one who arrives,

and asks for the best,

I'm ready to enlight,

one more mind,

to relinquish the destiny,

the devil enshrined,

waiting to revamp,

I'm your genie in my lamp!!!

bring me out,

cherish your life,

I'll grant your wishes,

and let you Jive!!!

~Shashank~

Here I Go!!!

2009-02-19T13:12:00.000-08:00

At the sunset point,

when I felt like a hole!

Hapless searching,

missing my soul!!

I saw this bird,

burning down her skin!

Melting into the ashes,

shedding all her sins!!

I was stuck, so I felt,

why shouldn't, I also melt!!

Then she rose,

like the fresh air!

Rising from the ashes,

Phoenix flair!!

Going so high,

in the sky!

Once again to fight,

the odds of the life!!!

I didn't want to remain stuck, so I realized,

Why shouldn't, I also rise!!!

Burnt down the old,

I moved on!

I am not stuck anymore,

The life is ON!!

It was never about life,

It was never about you!

It was always me,

and that is true!!

Jovial as blood,

I have to flow!

Watch out Oh! World,

Here I go!!!!

~Shashank~

The Dream!!!

2009-02-19T13:06:00.000-08:00

Dark were the days,

but they are gone!

I could see the sunshine

of the new dawn!!

The moment has arrived,

the dark night has gone!

I could see the hands rising,

the life is, now, on!!

I could see the sun rising,

I could see the clear sky!

I could see my clear thoughts,

I could see you smile!!

Alas, this becomes true!

Like my eyes saw this,

Your eyes see it too!!!

~Shashank~

I met her!!!

2009-02-19T12:53:00.000-08:00

I met her – that was the best thing which has ever happened to me. I’ve heard it so many times that people fall in love. But this never happened to me. I never fell. I felt like as if I am rising, rinsing very high. It felt great.

I was in my college when I met my life for the first time. That was like a magnetic moment and I tried to repel it as much as possible. Not sure when, but very soon we were good friends, rather say best friends. She became my strength then fear and then suddenly she took over everything and became my life. That was the time when I started rising – very high!!!

Sooner I was in the struggle for a job. Either I was dumb enough to not get a job or the employer didn’t want anything that better. My life said – I believe in you, you are the best! Not sure if the employer somehow got to know about it, I got a job – good enough to keep me and my life happy about it.

Life flourished – love nourished. We came closer to each other. That was the time we were walking across the beach holding each other’s arm, sharing the same coffee, doing anything to see each other, celebrating valentine, singing romantic songs, falling in love – rising in love!!! I can never forget that cute smile; I could do anything for that smile! I can never forget that shy giggle when I hugged her! I can never forget the spirit, the spirit of love which she brought in me!

Time was very crucial at that stage. I was just managing it somehow, as usual. The only thing which kept my spirit high was my life. You never walk across a dry and clean street every time. Even I did not. This time it was wet enough to drench me completely. I could see my life going away from me and could do nothing. I wear power glasses so I never use to wear sunglasses. That day, too, I could not realize that it was going wrong! Or may be I realized and thought that my life will handle it this time, yet again!

I was planning for a big flight. I was planning for a big surprise for my life. I was planning to get everything settled. The ground was all set, I was about to take off when I realized that my life was no more with me. May be, I was just too late. It all happened in front of me and I could not do anything else that smiling to my fate! I had no idea what would bring that cute smile back. She wanted to go and I let her do that. I thought that is what my life wants, let it happen! My life chose to move on!

I have a bad habit of revisiting the day before I sleep! I did that and I never had my eyes so much loaded! It was just unbearable! But I had to let it happen. I never lived without my life until then from the time I met her. This was the first time I had a lot of time, this time I was not running out of time! I had plenty of time to cry and celebrate!

My life was no more with me! But I was breathing. Every moment proved to be the most difficult moment of my life. I saw a dry street and started moving on that. I realized after a few steps that I was falling! I was falling in love with my life every moment! I sooner realized that my life was my passion and that was the best feeling I had! Feeling can never die, neither mine did! It started increasing in me. I started rising again. Not sure if the time was right, as usual! But the fact that I loved my life was something which really made me feel high on spirit! She was not there but still she was inspiring me!

I wanted to see her happy! Everyone wants that, everyone wants to keep their life happy! And that is what we want from our life! We want to keep ourselves happy. For me, it’s all about my life! It’s all about – “what I want from my life!”

It has been many years now! I still walk on the same street just to see her once. I can never forget that cute smile! I still stir the coffee with sugar before I add milk; I still sing those songs and think that she would be listening somewhere; I still believe that someday “My life would say – I believe in you, you are the best!” I still close my eyes - stretch my arms and that brings smile on my face! I love my life!!!

~Shashank~

Tathastu!!!

2009-02-19T12:33:00.000-08:00

Probably, that was an Armageddon!!! I nearly died. I don't know what made me survive. May be I was too tough to die or may be what I thought as the end of everything was just a beginning. Whatever it was, it shook my nerves. When I actually thought of reviving, I started searching for an angel or a god who will say "TATHASTU" and everything will become alright. Unfortunately, rather fortunately, I didn't find anyone like that. The god wasn't around this time, at least I was not able to see him (I have a bad eye sight, but I am sure that was not the reason I didn't find him).

That was the time when I lost trust in almost everyone. The only one who never went apart was my inner self. Somewhere inside, it still believed in me. When I asked my inner self what I should do, I got my answer, the right one. I initially used to think that I was a perfect person. There are moments in life when you realize the right things at the right time. I realized that being perfect was my perception of a bunch of things. Actually, I was never a perfect person. I was a human and the thing that kept me human was my imperfection. Now was the time to decide, if I wanted to remain a human or turn into a Divine! I have decided it!!!

I feel free now! I was a god, it was always me! I felt I was strong and this made me realize how weak I was! Weak, but not dead! I still live, I still thrive! Trust me, I will survive! "TATHASTU"!!!

Whether shoot me,

Or burn my world,

I will not die,

I will never die!!

Whatever you do,

I will thrive!

I don't have to die,

I will survive!!

You kill me,

I'll revive!

I will not die,

I will never die!!!

~Shashank~

I Wish I Could!!!

2009-02-19T12:13:00.000-08:00

The shine, the whine,

The sweet sounds on the wind chime....

The love, the care,

The truth and the dare...

The tears, the emotions,

The never ending passion...

The hugs, the kiss,

The beautiful bliss...

The walk on the beach...

The universe within the reach...

The wrongs and the rights,

The blacks and the whites...

That sweet smile,

Those wonderful days,

The dimples dazzling on her face...

I wish, I could bring them back...

I wish I could rhyme...

I wish, I could breathe that air for one last time...

~Shashank~

My Reverie!!!

2009-02-19T12:05:00.000-08:00

As this time passes by,

and we'll walk away n say good bye,

My eyes open to the innocent blue sky,

and the moon so silent over the world so high...

will say, you lost your reverie, my child!!!

With a smile on my face,

and a trust within,

to the moon I'll say...

right beneath my heart, my soul,

she is still here in my core...

when I want to see my reverie,

I close my eyes, and there she is....

~Shashank~